I was just SO MAD!

Why does it feel better to hold on to angry feelings? It’s kind of like scratching a mosquito bite. You KNOW its not going to do any good and you KNOW it will just make it worse. But it’s also SO SO satisfying in the moment. I love that little critter book- because that is… Continue Reading

I’m sorry I forgot!

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Natalie I’m sorry, I feel bad. You are my girl, you are my side kick, my sweetheart, I honestly can’t imagine a life without you and if someone asked me what I “do” I know exactly what I would say to them. But this morning I completely forgot. I had 3 places to be at… Continue Reading

13 going on 21….4….30….2….

Natalie you just turned 13. I really can’t believe our girl, our ONLY girl is a teenager. I feel like I am watching you like a hawk and you can blame it on Scotty. I blinked and he went from 9 to 16 and I am not going to let that happen with you. I… Continue Reading

To touch His robe.

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Dear Elder Bednar, When I found out you were coming to the Sacramento area and our Stake would get to hear from you I was really looking forward to it. (I think it’s been 35 years since we had an apostle speak here!) I know we have been hearing you and all the other wonderful… Continue Reading

Hmph!

Jonathan and I are/were having a fight. (Mostly it’s me because he gets over stuff really fast and sometimes doesn’t even realize I am still mad. Hmph.) He doesn’t have a blog so I don’t think its fair to air my side of it when he can’t. Although I am sure I could very easily… Continue Reading

What did you say??

I got this note on my windshield in the blue parking at Sam’s club, where I had just finished grocery shopping with Ben and Ty. When I read it my first reaction was to get back out of the car and look around to see if the writer was still there watching, because I wanted… Continue Reading

Because they thought it looked awesome.

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I find millions of selfies on the different devices around the house. Usually I delete 49 of the 50 taken (they can’t seem to ever take just one…) But when Ben, (following the lead of the bigs) learned how to set wallpaper (lock AND/OR home screen) it went to a whole new level. I’ve started… Continue Reading

Have you ever felt like this?

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Felt like you were doing it all on your own? And wondering if all your efforts are making a difference? Maybe you have felt more like this: Like if…I…just…push…a…little…harder… then “it” will change, or they will change, maybe my life will change….. Or maybe you have felt like people are just walking by, not noticing,… Continue Reading

Jealous?? Me too.

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Tonight Ty and Ben were snuggling with Jonathan on the couch and Ty said with a big grin “Mom aren’t you jealous??” He knew that of COURSE I would be SO jealous of Jonathan getting that cuddle instead of me! This week I did feel really jealous about something. And it kind of made me… Continue Reading

What I would have said…..

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In our church they do this strange thing that strikes fear, or at least greatly increases the heart rates of its members. In front of a couple thousand people at Stake Conference our leaders, when inspired to do so, will call up individuals to speak in front of the whole congregation. No warning- no preparation-… Continue Reading