What I would have said…..

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In our church they do this strange thing that strikes fear, or at least greatly increases the heart rates of its members. In front of a couple thousand people at Stake Conference our leaders, when inspired to do so, will call up individuals to speak in front of the whole congregation. No warning- no preparation- they are just asked to speak from the heart for a couple minutes about what they believe.

I LOVE IT (well, I love it from the moment the names are said and mine is not one of them) it’s so inspiring to hear others experiences and feelings, and it always makes me think about what I’d say, what my testimony would be. So today when we got home I had the kids all write in their journals what they would have said if called up. I think I need to do it too!

Because blogging is such a good way to vent, I tend to write more about the hard stuff than the GREATER good stuff in my life. But today was a really wonderful wonderful day. In Stake Conference seated with my whole family on the 6th row (yes we got there super early) we listened to a Special Witness of Jesus Christ- Elder Bednar. When he walked into the room it brought tears to my eyes as I thought about the great love Christ has for us in organizing His church just as it was when He was on the earth. I felt that love as I listened to His Apostle teach us to try and understand the true Character of Christ (there are so many examples in the scriptures!) so that we can have better faith and be sure our course is true. He told us that “Perfection is becoming complete, not living without mistakes.” I love that! What a better way to look at our human frailties. I want my children to understand that making mistakes is part of life- and that’s why they have a Savior to turn to.

If I had been called up I would have said that I know I Boo Hoo, and get overwhelmed sometimes. But in the core of me, in my foundation, I am happy. I have a strong unwavering belief that God is real, that my family is not temporal, we are ETERNAL. That trying to listen to the direction God has for me, for my life, will bring me more joy than trying to find a way on my own. I accept willingly that God CAN ask a lot of me, because that is how I can become more “complete.” I believe that if I try to follow Christ’s example of turning outward instead of inward, it will keep me from wallowing and help me find more to be grateful for.

After the meeting we walked around the temple and took the family photo on the right to replicate this one taken 5 years ago after Natalie’s baptism. What a long way we have come! We still have a long way to go but I am so full of hope for the future.

XO

PS
Last night I was explaining to Ty about the conference and that we were going to hear an apostle “A special helper whose job is to tell everyone that Jesus is real” Ty responded “Well we already KNOW Jesus is real so why do we need to go?” 🙂
Then at the conference during a song I was pointing out Elder Bednar to Ty, who couldn’t see which man he was. Elder Bednar noticed and waved at Ty three times until Ty saw him. Just goodness. <3

5 thoughts on “What I would have said…..

  1. Good morning, Beth! I loved getting up this morning, playing with Schulz, getting my cup of coffee, then settling down a few minutes with Facebook before getting ready for work. I was excited to see that you had written on your blog because I always find your words and view on life so uplifting. Let me say that when we first met at CCI, and you got up and spoke about your experience there, I was in awe of you… immediately. You spoke from your heart and you touched many with your words. I knew at that moment that we were kindred spirits. I felt so close to you.. like I had known you forever. Your walk on this earth shows your beautiful soul… so full of love for your family and others. So, one of these days when you are called to speak in front of the congregation, I know you will speak from your heart and touch many again. Sending you so much love! XO

  2. Beth, thank you! Your thoughts touch my heart! You are such an inspiration. Your experience with Elder Bednar touches a sweet cord in my heart as I try to become more complete. I relate to your reality of being happy at your core. Isn’t it wonderful!? And all thanks to the Savior and His wonderful gospel. Your family is so beautiful. Their beautiful spirits just shine! Love you! Aunt Gretchen

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